Juni 22, 2016

Happy Twenty!

Dear Gening,

My long-distance-partner in almost everything we could relate to. Writing? Discussing? Eating? Sharing ugly faces? And so on. I never thought to have someone as this close, even separated by kms but still contacting each other in ups and downs, supporting through motivational words and peaceful ayats.

Aku ga lupa ulang tahun kamu kok. Swear. Tapi lagi mikir how surprise you with something special more than foods in your tummy through miles apart. E he he.

Dear Gening,

Happy turning 20.
Twenty that means new beginning and a new you. No more upset about what you have passed yesterday, no more tears like johnsons baby always motivated us.

Wishing you my deepest and more-than-words-wishes to be wished because we really know that Allah hear every lil things in our minds. Semoga selalu dalam lindungan Allah ya dan terus selalu bermanfaat untuk Ibu, Ayah, negara, dan agama.

Twenty that means honest about yourself in a whole.

Keep being Gening who is a silly, cute, and amazing! See you when I see you!


Juni 08, 2016

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Dear self,
stop asking for any helps
stop questioning about things that won't change
stop saying sorry for things you've never did

Dear self,
be careful with your words
be cheerful above your sadness
be one who matters for everyone

Dear self,
thank to people who still surround you in your thins
accompany people who still hang in there
and,
let all that hurts you,
go.

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Semenjak omegle banned, gue ga punya tempat curhat yang ena. I mean, stranger omegle ga semuanya mesum kok. Serius. Gue pernah nemuin orang yang sinting, selera humor yang baik, yang wise as asdfghjkl, yang pinter ga ketolong. Ini gue omegle chat ya, bukan video. Omegle video hanya dipake kalo janjian sama orang, because skype is too mainstream.

Q : "Apaan sih lu fu demen banget curhat di omegle"
A : "Gimana dong, cuma di omegle gue kalo salah ditegur dan dikasih solusi. Yang kalo gue curhat panjang lebar ditanggepin, ga perlu mikir ntar ke depannya gimana karena mereka ga kenal gue."

Semenjak omegle banned, gue jadi gampang nangis. Percayalah, se-extrovert-extrovertnya gue; gue ga curhatin semuanya, masih suka haha hehe palsu, yang dipendem masih banyak. Hhh, perlu omegle banget sekarang.

Sebenernya gue lagi pusing, doang.
Doang.

"You expect a lot because you are willing to do that for others. Darling, that isn't how everyone is. Don't live your life thinking that people will be good to you because you're good to them. Don't think that they'll jump from the bridge for you because you'll do that without a second thought. Don't think that makes you overbearing. Don't hate that about yourself. We're fathomless. We feel empty but we still keep on giving and giving. Never lose the will to give love. No matter how much unkindness you suffer. Don't become them. The moment you reciprocate their hatred with hatred, it's over, you're one of them. Breathe, breathe in all the rage, all the hurt and breathe it out. Let it go. It's okay."- carrisatehputri.wordpress.com